Everything is OK
So many times in my life, I have reached what I thought was the breaking point.
Whatever could go wrong seemed to be going wrong. Things that I thought would work out fell apart. Doors of opportunity were slammed shut. People that I depended on let me down. And it didn't seem like I could talk to anyone about it.
When I was in poverty, it was easy to find a listening ear and a sympathetic heart. When you "make it" (that is make it out of poverty), no one wants to listen to you whine about your "wonderful" life.
So you end up alone and miserable. This is the tragedy of reaching what others view as successful. They believe that because you don't have their problems, you don't have real problems. This could not be further from the truth.
When I look back on it now, I can see the immaturity of my views. I thought that I was the "only one" experiencing such strife. The truth is that we all experience strife of some kind. No human in this life escapes trouble.
I had a belief that I should somehow be exempt from pain and suffering. I am not sure where I derived this notion, but I truly believed that my life "should" be better. Why were things happening to me? The truth is that life is full of ups and downs, good and bad, joy and pain. It is this ebb and flow that makes life what it is.
What I know now that I didn't know then are two things: Life goes on and I am strong enough to last.
I have learned to savor my days. I enjoy the joyful moments and I bear the painful moments.
I have also learned that sharing my joy and pain with others is part of freedom's journey. I have people who love the real me. And the rest don't matter.
"One day at a time" is one of my mantras. And sometimes it is minute by minute. I focus in on the now and breathe in deeply. My breath reminds me that I am alive. And in that moment I understand that everyting will be OK.
What is stopping you from enjoying your right now moments? Can you let it go and just breathe?
Can you accept that everything is OK?
My friend, love yourself through it. Everything is OK.
And I am right here cheering for you.